let me live.

It’s official. I have lost faith in today’s society. Think about the old days! Everyone listened to real music, Which is, What we call today, Classic Rock. <3 Back when being rebellious became a lifestyle, mixed in with drugs, sex, and men with long hair. Why is that such a distant thing, today? All you see now, Is everyone trying to “fit in” and going all mainstream and junk. It really makes me wish I was born in the 80’s, Instead of the fucking 90’s. I’m sick of all of these auto-tune infested “bands/singers/rappers/etc.” making it big, Just because they know how to edit their voice, and Come up with something catchy. It’s obvious, their just in it for the fame.

I highly respect any band who doesn’t care about making it big. A band who just plays their music, Because they love to. Which is mainly why I listen to the music I love today! Post-Hardcore/Metal/Hard Rock FTW! :D

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We’ve all seen them on TV and such. But do you have to experience it first hand? I, unfortunately, have to see my best friend go threw this. Yep, you guessed it. She is 15 and pregnant. I was completely shocked when she first told me the news. She was definitley the last person I would expect it to happen to. We cried all night long, but I reminded her that I would be there for her and support her. That was back in July..

Once school started things got harder. News spreads fast in our huge school, because by lunch, everyone knew she was pregnant. It also came along with a lot of rumors. Some said she was faking the pregnacy, others said the father was an old man (which is utterly disgusting!). Let’s just say she lost a lot of friends this year. But not me. I could never abandon her.

Now, about the father. When he first started dating her, I thought he was a total douche bag. He did drugs, and got into a lot of trouble. But, he changed for her. So I gave him a chance, and realized he was a pretty cool dude. Although he is the one who got her in the mess..

Anyway, months have gone by since then, and I wish I could say things are easier for her. But they aren’t. She is still struggling. The baby is due in March(which btw, its a boy!), but her and the father are having problems.

She called me last night crying her eyes out. I realized how the pregnacy has really affected her. The father was being a complete dick to her, and well..she’s not sure if her son will grow up seeing the father.

This blog is to all you assholes out there. ANY fool can make a baby, but it takes a MAN to raise it. Don’t get a girl pregnant if you intend on walking out on her. That does not make you a man…

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I think I’ve developed an unhealthy obsession with A Day To Remember’s latest album.

Stop what you’re doing.

Get your butt off the computer.

Run to Hot Topic or something.

And BUY IT.

I promise you it’s worth the cash.

You can thank me later…

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Today has been really rough. I’ve realized how much life changes. Do I like change? It always sucks at first…but gets better in the end…but just when you’re getting used to it…it will change again! So, no, I don’t really care for changes. :/ you know that feeling where you want someone in your life again, but you mentally slap yourself for thinking such a thing, since you know that’ll never happen. That painful feeling in your heart, aching for things to go back to the way they used to be. Everyone has felt those ways at least once in their life. I unfortunately expirience it everyday. I know what you’re thinking…”in your last blog, you said you liked how your life is now!”, well yeah that’s partly true. There are some new people in my life, that have brought so much joy to my soul <3 but..as I grow closer to them, I grow apart from my old friends. The friends that were always there…know every detail about me…the ones I can always count on! As I changed, so have they. And what I have with my new friends, will never compare to what I had with them. No matter how hard we try, we can’t make things go back to how they used to be.

Hmm, has this blog post confused you yet? Yeah, I just confused myself.

The bottom line is…..I HATE CHANGE! >:(

Wow, where do I start?

I’ve changed A LOT since my last blog entry. Honestly, I don’t know who that girl is, anymore. My music taste was different, and so was my fashion sense. Doesn’t that happen to us all? Of course, because life is full of change.

I was just a little fishy in High School trying to find herself. I was shy, quiet, and uptight during my freshmen year. Honestly? I was such a joy-kill.

I WAS SO ORDINARY! It was like I was a copy of everybody else.

Now I’m different. Now I’m MYSELF.

Here I am, A smore in High School, with blonde stripes in my hair (something I swore I’d never do), actually enjoying life & becoming satisfied with who I am! The teachers can’t get me to shut up now, and I MAKE SCHOOL FUN.

All because I let go of what I was…and became who I was meant to be..

People stereotype me as Emo/Scene/Rocker…but FORGET stereotypes and see me for who I am <3

Thank you random stranger for reading this little rant.

I shall be blogging more often, so be prepared.

Go make someone smile today! :D

lovelovelove,

~Crystal (: